Seriously… this blog entry went off the rails, and after several weeks of “discussion” with my conspiracy theorist cousin on Twitter, I finally popped and had to say all of the things I’ve been thinking and feeling about that. I mean, if you wanna hear how “far out” she has become, then go ahead and read… but honestly… you should just skip this entry. It’s mostly just for me to get this shit out of my head.
Didn’t sleep well last night. Not only staying awake into the wee hours of the morning, but then having weird dreams that kept waking me up as I’ve learned to expect. First one, I was golfing with Dad and Uncle Jay and they had replaced my ball with one of those trick “exploding” golf balls, but when I realized it – rather than hitting the ball with my club, I picked it up and tried to eat it. This clogged my mouth and throat with crunchy “shell” pieces along with the dust inside, which turned to a thick paste. I had to use my fingers to dig everything out so I wouldn’t choke or suffocate… and then for whatever reason, I did it a second time.
In the next dream I was stuck inside a multiple story house with some friends, and flood water was filling up the lower rooms. However, to get to the next floor, you had to take the stairs where the ceiling was so low that the only way you could go up the stairs was if you laid down on your back and squeezed / scooched your way up the stairs as your nose pressed against the ceiling. Super claustrophobic, but I managed to make it.
But anyway, I ended up sleeping away the first part of the day, and luckily I didn’t get any phone calls from anyone. After my ultrasound yesterday I was kinda worried that I’d immediately get a call this morning telling me to come in to discuss the results – but at least so far, more than 24 hours later, and nobody has urgently contacted me. I’ll probably give them a call tomorrow though so I’m not sitting around here waiting, and we’ll see if they schedule me three months out like planned or if I have to go in sooner.
And as I was typing this, I got another notification on Twitter that my cousin had replied to one of my tweets. I’ve tried to be patient with her, I’ve tried to explain all of the ways she’s been misled or how she’s misinterpreting things… and I’ve tried my best to keep doing it without telling her that she’s nuts. But she just posted that COVID was a cover-up that the military arranged to help Donald Trump drain the swamp. And boy does she love using all of his catch phrases… while having absolutely no idea what she or he means by any of it.
But yeah, she shared an image with me that shows when someone has been “tested but came back negative” that it actually means they’ve been questioned by the military for crimes against humanity but have been found innocent. If someone is “self quarantining” it means that they’ve been found guilty and placed on house arrest with an ankle bracelet… heh… I dunno, it just keeps going from there. Just loads of goofy, goofy shit… and I don’t know what must have happened to a person to where they truly believe all of the conspiracy theory shit that they read.
She believes that the government is full of Democrats running a pedophile ring, child trafficking, but that Donald Trump is saving all of the children from that. She has also, with a straight face, told me that many politicians and celebrities not only worship the devil and drink the blood of children, but many of them have already been executed by the military for those same vague “crimes against humanity” and have been replaced by clones. She even remarked how she can’t watch a lot of TV shows or movies anymore because the actors that she liked have been found to be evil, killed, and replaced by clones. Seriously.
Every time she would post something with incorrect facts I would correct her and include the links to back up what I was telling her. Didn’t matter. And any time Donald Trump either looks ignorant of an issue, or like he doesn’t care, or like he’s not addressing one of these huge problems – she simply writes it off as “part of his plans” and that she has faith and “you’ll see eventually” when it comes to whatever the plans are supposed to be.
She cautions me to not believe what I read, yet she believes every nonsense theory out there. She says I can’t live in fear all the time… which I don’t… but then she’ll start talking about the TV subliminally programming people, celebrities brainwashing children to drink blood, how the governments are gonna enact plans to kill all but 5% of the population of earth, along with almost any other “scary” scenario you see being floated around out there. Everything she describes is stuff that she fears is going to happen, yet she says that I’m not supposed to live in fear.
Heh… I didn’t originally plan to even mention this, but good grief, every post I make, every time I reply to her to hopefully help her understand – she just replies with more and more nonsense. At least she’s not being hateful about her beliefs like a different cousin of mine. But what am I supposed to do with her if she won’t listen to facts, thinks all sorts of horrible things are happening and going to happen, but that Trump has a plan for all of it but we just have to wait. It’s like, okay… I’m not sure why you want to keep looking up and believing all of these horrible things that you have no way of changing or stopping, but if that’s what you wanna do… okay?
It’s unfortunately almost funny how much projection she does. All of the things she says I shouldn’t do… those are the things she does. Believing anonymous posts with nothing to back the info up, believing everything that Trump says even when it can be proven otherwise… like, she believes “the wall” has been built, she believes Trump is ridding the government of pedophiles (even though just the other day he said he knows nothing about it), and she told me that I should read the Bible to see how Trump is fulfilling prophecies and that he has given me back so many of my rights that had been taken away. (And of course she couldn’t name any, since it’s just a bogus claim.)
I feel bad for them… getting so sucked in to whatever it is that they are now. Day after day of researching and “waking up” to now “know” about all the evil, all the schemes, all the clones, all the secrets, all the cover-ups, all the code words and fake news… it really has changed who they are. I mean, if you think Trump is the better candidate, then fine… vote for Trump. But Christ, how is your life improving by becoming part of the small amount of humans who are being led around by the nose, making themselves look so dumb to people who are able to research and understand what the facts actually are. I wish I could keep talking to her about this stuff, because I wish my words could make a difference… but that’s the world that she wants to live in. Where everything is awful, everyone is out to get everyone else, nothing is as it seems, and Donald Trump is the only one that can save us all. Yowza…