Venting, Whining, Whatever…

Today was challenging. So much bad news to absorb. My own bad news, my friends’ bad news, and even the bad news of my friends‘ friends… it’s just been a lot. πŸ˜“ After spending half the day useless and frozen from all of that, I finally pulled it together and started working on all of the laundry that has been building up over the past several weeks. 😳 Yes. Weeks. It wasn’t gross or anything… I could just never find the time to get to it, so I basically went through almost everything in my closets and dressers – which has gotten me to this point. Doing laundry at 3am on a Tuesday night. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ Is it Tuesday night? I honestly don’t even know what day this is/was. πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

It makes me feel better to finally start catching up though. πŸ™‚ While helping Cassi through their move, my stuff went on the back burner. Another instance of doing the best that I could, but my best not being enough to help her and keep my own stuff going. I’m just tired of not being good enough or able enough or around enough or motivated enough. So it seems dumb, but being able to start and do almost all of my laundry so far tonight… I pat myself on the back for that. And tomorrow when I pay my bills I’ll pat myself on the back for that too. And despite my carpets being completely covered with fur, I’m actually almost done grooming Maven already, and I only started yesterday. πŸ™€ It’s not a quick process… shaving a cat. It’s kinda up to her what that schedule will be like.

Fuck… this is another entry that sounds like whining, and I hate doing that. πŸ˜’ I’m just not operating like a normal human right now, and most people aren’t going to understand my physical and mental limitations or why they exist… so I just have to take these small accomplishments as tiny little victories towards being better able to emulate the humans… because that’s what everyone expects. 😐 I swear if I have one more person tell me that I should be doing this or shouldn’t be doing that. Meh… like I said… today has been challenging. πŸ˜”

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