Figuring It Out

I’m trying to not be anxious today… which in itself seems silly, as I’m either gonna be or not… but something about today being a Monday is making it more difficult. šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™‚ļø It might be because I have a doctor appointment coming up in a couple of days, where not only would I rather not to be leaving the house, but also because I’m nervous that the appointment could lead to additional appointments or tests or whatever. šŸ˜• It’s nothing serious as far as I know, but with my luck… who knows.

That, and I’m noticing that I’ve got a toothache that hasn’t gone away after a couple days. It’s not bad bad yet, but just the idea of possibly having to make a dentist appointment where I’ll have my mouth held wide open – in a room with people who’ve been around dozens of other people with their mouths held wide open… heh… I’d just rather not, but I may end up not having a choice. šŸ˜šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™‚ļø It’s funny how “little things” start feeling a lot bigger when all this other stuff is going on, eh?

The family has all been checking in with each other in a roundabout way, where we don’t necessarily all talk to each other, but one of us will know that another bunch of us are hanging in there, so we can pass that info along. šŸ™‚ Most of my cousins work in jobs where they’ll be able to / have to keep working despite the crisis, so I guess that’s both good and bad. Hard to know if the government will actually come up with something that would really enable folks to pay all their bills and keep food on the table if they do lose their jobs.

And of course anyone with retirement money in the stock market or other investments around this time… of course nobody is gonna be happy with how things are going. ā˜¹ļø Not only do I worry about friends and family’s health and safety regarding the virus, but I also hate that some of them are really taking a financial hit or at risk of losing their jobs for the time being. šŸ˜³ Nothing’s good for anyone right now, and there’s no way of getting around it.

There wasn’t a “virtual” race to distract us all today, but one of the guys I watch on YouTube quite a bit… Steve Lehto… he’s been holding livestream discussions more often than his typical weekend shows, so it’s nice to just sit in a chat room with a bunch of randoms (while also watch something else on TV) and have some sort of “normal” conversation to take our minds off of things at least a bit. šŸ¤“šŸ˜šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™‚ļø Of course the topic still comes up in conversation there, but there’s plenty of other topics bounced back and forth. (You’ll hear my name mentioned a few times as he reads and responds to one of my questions or comments.)

So I dunno… not much better or worse than yesterday… it’s just the couple of unpredictable medical concerns that probably have me more anxious than I’d otherwise be. šŸ˜ Getting to that age where I’m like that old car that you take to the shop for a rattle, and they find the rattle… and a leak… and a cracked seal… worn tires… etc. šŸ˜ Just really hoping that I can get those things wrapped up quickly so I can just settle in to this isolation period and hope for the best like everyone else. ‘Cuz other than that stuff I mentioned, I feel like I’m fairly prepared and ready for a few weeks of this at least. (Knock on wood)