That’s Just The Way It Is

Weird day. 😐 Spent about 45 minutes at the pharmacy, trying to get WC to actually pay for the two WC meds that I had to pick up… but nope. Not completely unexpected. There’s one more that I need to get, but I’ve banked a few days of it here at the house so I can give it a little while to sit, to see if that helps it make its way through the approval process. πŸ™„ It wasn’t outright refused, like the others, so maybe… who knows…

Among the things that I sent to my lawyers was an update on how the medication situation was going, along with a request for the forms that I can fill out and submit into the system, which will show that they’re not being paid for, and which will hopefully result in reimbursement. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ˜’ Of course, that is, if the settlement isn’t near. I’m still leaning 50% on being able to eventually get paid back by “paying myself back” out of that check, if / when it ever comes.

If I don’t hear back from someone there by mid-week, I guess I’ll have to start calling until I reach someone. I’m not complaining about my team. They’ve been great… but COVID restrictions and then an apparent relocation of their office seems to have really slammed the brakes on my shit. πŸ˜• I really thought we were getting close… months and months ago now.

Despite the bullshit, somehow I made myself stay in town and do some more running. πŸ™‚πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ Had to go to the bank, so I decided to go in rather than going through the drive through. Something soothing about standing in that old ass building… heh… makes me think back to when I was a kid, going there with my grandparents or my aunt, where they’d often score blankets or toasters for putting money into a CD. 😊

Went to a couple thrift stores… only because they were nearly empty. Of people, that is. I guess it was because it was very early in the afternoon, most people still at work or doing whatever… but yeah, grabbed a couple new (to me) shirts, some new bowls and a huge coffee mug – typical thrift store stuff. It was nice just being out somewhere, but also not surrounded by a bunch of people without masks.

Then in the late afternoon Cassi and Steven made it down to handle the bushes for me. He borrowed a gas powered trimmer from a friend, and then I had the electric one as a second trimmer. πŸ˜ŽπŸ‘πŸ» (One for the bulk cutting, one for going along afterwards and applying the finesse.) We knew that there was no way they’d get done done before we lost the sun, so while all the bushes got hit – probably half of them still need the detail work done, or the harder to reach stuff snipped. πŸ™‚πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ So we included it as part of the plan, to not worry about it, and the next time they come down (probably within the next week) we’ll go out and finish it all up to where we can stand back, look at what was done, and declare it all to be good. πŸŒ³πŸŒ³πŸ˜‡πŸŒ³πŸŒ³

I helped some, so I’m sure I’ll be feeling it a bit tomorrow, but I didn’t push myself to where I’m gonna be out of order for a couple days again. πŸ™„πŸ€žπŸ» But yeah, I was impressed that they made it around the entire house before it got dark, so I’m already happy with how things went. The upcoming finishing touches are basically just gravy. πŸ™‚ Glad to have some muscle and finesse that could help me out with this, for sure. So now I’m feeling optimistic about doing a couple more things tomorrow that I’ve been thinking about, but we’ll see how I’m feelin’ about all that once the sun rises, eh? 😏

(Oh, and I picked up a reasonably thick blank journal while at the pharmacy. I think I may have mentioned in a previous post how I used to scribble down my dreams after waking up, and sometimes even draw some illustrations… so I’m hoping to get back into that habit. Lets the brain focus on (usually) non-shitty stuff for a little longer after sleep… heh)

A Different Ramble

Yay. Made it to the weekend. 😐 This past week had been a big ol’ MEH for me personally, even though there wasn’t anything particularly horrible… just not a whole lot that was good, either. Getting to the weekend allows me to mentally switch gears, which is silly – since “weekday” or “weekend” doesn’t really have any functional difference in my position, but it just helps me to push aside the “meh” of last week and prepare to work on some different “meh” with a bit less on my mind. πŸ˜πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

Some good stuff from the past week… I had a friend come over and bail me out when my lawn had gotten overgrown and I hadn’t seen or heard from my normal mowing crew in two weeks. 🀨 Got my orders of paper masks and hand sanitizer from Amazon. It had been hard to find in stock for a while, so I went ahead and got the pack of 50 masks and a friggin’ case of a dozen 8oz bottles of gel. But having that much, that allowed me to take some up to a couple different friends in Columbus who are as cautious (paranoid?) as me, so they wouldn’t have to go searching for it in stores. 😳😷 Oh, and I did pick up a load of groceries for Dad, using Kroger’s curbside pickup, but unfortunately wasn’t able to stay and visit. 😟 Should be soon, though.

And I don’t know yet if this will turn out to be a good thing or a bad thing, but since the start of last week – all the way up through yesterday – I’ve gotten pieces of mail of various thickness and sizes from the Center for Medicare Services, my Medicare insurer, the Social Security Administration, and I think there may have been one in there from my WC attorneys as well. πŸ˜³πŸ˜‘ If it’s all just stuff to help finish up the settlement phase of my case, then great… I’ll grit my teefs and get through it. But something just tells me that there’s gonna be at least a couple things in this pile of mail that are waiting to be a pain in my ass.

I’ll hold back on my complaining about the lawn situation too much, since it was mostly a misunderstanding. I ended up having a friend mow my lawn in the evening of the 14th day since my normal guys had been here, because the prior week I had contacted them to let them know that part of the yard was getting overgrown with weeds and new bush growth from where they had missed it before. πŸ˜• Yet five days later I still hadn’t even gotten a reply, never mind anyone actually showing up to mow. He said it was because I was down for “every two weeks” even though I thought it was every ten days or so, but like I said… if he’d have replied I’d have at least known that they would be coming eventually, and when I told him five days prior that the yard was already getting out of control – you’d think they’d wanna take care of that sooner than later. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ˜’

And I’ve been watching the news, reading the articles, paying attention to the numbers all week… and I’ve decided that I can’t go to my cousin’s graduation party this evening. πŸ˜” There’s been a noticeable increase in COVID-19 cases which comes from people’s Memorial Day activity, and then all these protests… woo… it should be about another week before we start seeing the increases from those. 😬 That’ll be the first big “experiment” that may relax some of my fears. If things don’t really pop off after all of the people rubbing up against each other in all of the protest cities, then maybe I can let up on my concern just a bit. But yeah, I can’t go and mix it up with a bunch of folks who’ve been who-knows-where doing who-knows what… especially if I’m gonna be spending time with Dad soon. I hope nothing bad comes from the gathering, because she’d probably feel awful if any of the family members get sick (or worse) just to go to her grad party. 😟

Okay, I’ve gotta run down to the quicky mart to gas up and grab some pop, chips, bread, etc. It’s really the only “store” I’ve been in for months now, so thankfully they have all the small essentials to keep me going – even if it costs a little more than at a regular store. But they’re good at keeping customer numbers in the store low, the doors all open with the breeze blowing, and plenty of space while standing in line. Only once or twice did I see everyone there (as customers) wearing a mask, and last time I was the only one… but yeah, I’m comfortable enough with that place that I don’t have an instant panic attack as I park and prepare to exit my car. 😳

So the plans for tonight include grabbing gas station goodies, hitting BK a little further down the road for dinner, getting back here to the house to then start the laundry, finish the dishes, and face whatever fresh hell all of this mail is waiting to bestow upon me. 😠 I tried to do that last part a couple times this week but couldn’t make myself do it – but I can’t stall anymore since the stuff is probably time sensitive. πŸ˜’ Fun Fun.

Not Yet

It’s a deceptively beautiful day outside so far today, but I don’t think I’m ready to make a trip to the store like I was considering quite yet. My brain hasn’t really made it out of “weekend” mode, and after a night of bad dreams and waking up in a cold sweat a few times – I’m finding it easier to kinda just sit here with the doors open, trying to absorb some of the “nice” while I plan a few things I need to work on later this afternoon.

I think, lingering in the background processes of my brain, the way that a lot of the country is planning to “re-open” is filling me with an ominous feeling. 😳 Since not every state practiced a well-thought, simultaneous “shelter at home” order along with every other state – the effectiveness of such precautions has already been damaged. Sure, your state will have lower numbers while they individually practice such restrictions, but if surrounding states aren’t being as careful and allow their infection numbers to grow, what do you think’s gonna happen when your state decides to relax their rules?

You may have seen the videos on Twitter or the news… where, just because rules have been relaxed, hundreds of people decided to pour into the streets, the parks, the sidewalks, the beaches… basically just because they haven’t been allowed to for so long, and now they can. Good for them? πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ˜Ÿ And when reporters ask them why they’re out and mingling with others, it’s almost always a “Because I can!” / “Because it’s our right as ‘murricans!” type of answer. Awesome. 😐 Way to prove a point. 😐 Job well done. 😐

If you look at the actual numbers though, you’ll see that we’re getting ready to open back up right at the time when people should be recognizing that the isolation is making a difference, and that if all states keep/start doing it, the downward trends should continue. But no, politicians are obviously gung-ho about opening up, the citizens hear the optimism, and far too many of them are now thinking and acting like the danger has passed and there’s less (or no) need for precautions. 😞 And in a further display of stupidity, our governor was going to mandate that for the time being – employees of stores and their customers must all wear masks. Sounds like a responsible idea, right? Well, he had to go back on that because of public outcry, of people being that vocal that they shouldn’t have to wear a mask, and so he not only backtracked on that – but essentially apologized for it by saying that they “went too far” with that rule.

It’s just amazing to me that there are that many people bitching about having to wear a mask. Something to protect them. Something to protect employees. Something to protect everyone by lowering the transmission rate. Who are these angry people? Who could be so selfish to angrily protest such a rule, others be damned? ☹️ It blows my mind…

So, yeah, I was originally gonna go out today and get pop for me and Dad, along with some other stuff, but obviously with all of that stuff swirling around in my thoughts, today isn’t the day for me to go out and do that. Especially since it’s likely that there will be a lot more folks out today than before. It’s just a creepy feeling to live in a state where so many people are vocally and angrily opposed to cooperating with a very simple precaution. 😟 Yeah, that’s not most people, but it doesn’t take many careless or indifferent infected people to cough or smear their cooties all over the place and ruin it for everyone else.

If anything, the state starting to “open up” is more likely to make me stay at home. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ It’s like if you’re at the beach and there’s been a shark warning – but the lifeguard says it’s all clear now, and people can return to the water if they want. 😧 You’ll have plenty of people who go running in, neck-deep… meanwhile, my ass would stay planted in the sand as I watched the water to see what happened. πŸ˜ŸπŸ€” That’s what right now feels like to me… the time to watch from the safety of my living room for a while, to see what’s gonna happen. πŸ₯Ί And if this virus is anything like what most doctors are saying, “what happens” ain’t gonna be good.

Another heavy blog entry… I’ll try to balance it out with something lighter this evening. 🀞🏻 My mood isn’t actually that bad otherwise, it’s just taking me a lot longer to get mentally and physically moving today than I’d prefer. I’ve got workers comp / settlement mail that I’ve yet to read, and then wanna do some typical straightening up around the living room and bedroom… so if I’m hard to reach today, I’m probably just trying to do something to make myself feel productive and normal. πŸ™‚