We’ll Be Looking In To It

Got an interesting sounding letter from Medicare yesterday. 🧐 You know how I often have a hard time getting my workers comp insurance to authorize payments for the related medications when they are due? Well, sometimes (in order to not go without) I have to use my Medicare Part D as backup insurance… and it (along with my co-pay) will cover the costs so I can pick things up when I’m supposed to, and until WC finally does authorize the charge. At that point the pharmacy issues a refund to me and (I assume)Β to Medicare – and everything ends up the way it should have been in the first place.

The letter doesn’t seem too concerning yet. It basically says that they’ve noticed incidents where they have been charged for something that they know should be covered by my workers comp insurance, and that they’re trying to get to the bottom of it. πŸ˜―πŸ˜ƒ It even says that I don’t have to do anything, and that they’re just letting me know that they’re going to be investigating to determine what’s exactly happening.

So one of two things seem likely. πŸ€” The first possibility is that the pharmacy is sometimes forgetting to do the refund and re-charge to my WC insurance once the charge has been authorized. πŸ˜• The second possibility is that there may have been a few times where the WC insurance never authorized a particular prescription, leaving Medicare holding the bill. Both of those are just guesses, ‘cuz this all comes as news to me, but it seems like one of those two could be a likely cause for any red flags going off at Medicare. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

I’m obviously hoping that my second guess is right, because it would be nice to know that the government is getting as annoyed as me – when for one reason or another, the medications that I’m legally entitled to through workers comp are either delayed or possibly not even approved at all on some occasions. But like I said, I’m just making assumptions, so who really knows what the truth is yet. After so many instances though, of course it starts to feel personal and a bit sinister… even though every “issue” I go through is probably actually triggered by a wonky insurance algorithm that doesn’t quite know what it’s doing. πŸ™„πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

Not the worst thing to happen throughout the crappy day yesterday, but medical stuff is always on the list of unwanted annoyances. In better news, Bubba’s flea treatment seems to be working, as I’m not even seeing any of them on her anymore… but that hasn’t stopped her from coming up to me on the regular, lookin’ for some more brushin’ and combing. 😏 Cripes… it’s almost 4am already. I mean, I plan on hiding from the ridiculous heat again today anyway, but I suppose I should hit the sack now that the adulting is done.


Run Down

Not bitching, just noting… I’m really starting to feel the affects of going without my thyroid meds. πŸ˜’ I had every intention last night of doing those two things that I mentioned, and while I did get the grass seed down (and the rain clouds that were coming dried up, thanks) I absolutely crapped out as soon as I came back in.

I remember washing my hands, to get rid of whatever the “blue” is on all of that seed, but after that – I was just out. 😴 I don’t even remember falling asleep, but it couldn’t have been much past dark. I’ve experienced a wide variety of side effects from the various meds I’ve tried or been on, but never has my energy dropped to zero (in what felt like)Β instantly like that.

And surprisingly, even after sleeping a long time last night, it doesn’t seem to have done anything for my energy today. Thankfully nothing was on the schedule for today, so I’ve just been tending to Maven and hoping that this is just an anomaly – and not the lack of meds catching up to me and showing it how it’s gonna go for the next two weeks. 😬

I’ve yet to call my attorneys, to see if I should maybe try to reschedule the “independent” workers comp exam (which is currently scheduled a few days before the radiation dose) to another date, because up until last night and today things did feel sucky, but still manageable. πŸ€”πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ I suppose the next couple of days will help me figure that out on its own. I’ll admit though, this is gonna suck even if it just stays the same… so I really do hope this is just a hiccup rather than a sign of things to come.

The other symptom… feeling like I’ve got a much shorter fuse than usual, and less ability to bite my lip when I probably should. I guess it’s just a good thing that I’m not interacting with too many people right now. (But it is a good reason to consider moving my workers comp exam, I suppose.) Toni was the first person to tell me that I might notice that general feeling… and she’s still got her thyroid, but has that kind of reaction if she misses a few days for whatever reason. Makes me wonder if people with “anger management” issues might also have a funky thyroid and not even realize that could be part of the problem. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ€¨

Once More For Good Measure

The bulk of my current thyroid treatment has been set up. Blood draw, three weeks without any thyroid meds, limiting iodine intake in my diet for that whole time, another blood draw… then the hospital (if the results of the second blood test allows it) will schedule a time for me to go there for the iodine radiation pill again, with the full body scan about a week later. Once everything is said and done (and only if there are zero issues along the way) I’ll be spending a little over a month without my thyroid and without the meds that replace its functions. And no, I’ve got no intention of googling to see how bad it might get.

Same as last time, I’ll have a protocol that I will have to follow for the week after I’ve taken the pill. No contact with anyone for the first few days, no contact with kids or pregnant women after that… washing everything I touch, keeping my distance from the cat when possible, using plastic utensils and paper plates… all that sorta fun stuff. Only this time I have no idea how I’ll physically and mentally feel due to being off of the thyroid medicine for so long. The next month or so will be an adventure.

Meh… there was more doctor stuff today, plus I’m likely gonna be radioactive when I’m supposed to have my next WC doctor appointment, so I’ll have to figure that out… but I just don’t have the mental energy to really keep at it this evening. Found out a couple of sad things with some other friends… I dunno, this day just ended up being pretty crappy. I’m gonna try to get some sleep and try to start fresh tomorrow.

I’m glad that at least this stuff is all on track now and we’re moving forward, I guess…

One More Day Won’t Hurt

Only slept two hours last night… thinking about the call coming from the doctor in the morning. However when I woke up I didn’t take my phone out of “do not disturb” mode, so I see that I have at least one voice mail message… but two hours of sleep + important medical phone calls didn’t mix today. πŸ˜” I’m exhausted and it isn’t even dusk yet, so I’m gonna go to bed really early tonight, take some Tylenol PMs as well, so hopefully I’ll not only sleep a ton – but also wake up early in the morning to check my voice mail and return calls right away if needed. In fact, I’m gonna go ahead and turn off all of my electronicals now.

So, yeah, I’m stumbling a bit at the start, but I’ll get it figured out here soon…

No More Stalling

Coming up on 4:00 am, so of course I’m still wide awake. πŸ™„ I wussed out the past couple of days re: getting in touch with my thyroid doctor, but since I know I have to do it tomorrow… (well, later today actually) yeah, this is just how my brain likes to do things. “Something important you have to do tomorrow? DON’T FALL ASLEEP! KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT!πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ Thank you very much, brain.

Believe it or not, I’ve finally gotten myself to a point where I’m not actually stressing over it that much… it’s just the “ugh” of the slog that I’m gonna have to go through. πŸ˜’ So taking a couple extra days to let myself get over the surprise of them bumping it up a bit, I think that was the right choice for me to make. πŸ˜•πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

And what difference is that couple of days really gonna make, ya know? Sure, I’m still nervous about everything that’s coming up… 😬 who wouldn’t be… but I’m gonna try to keep the faith and tell myself that everyone involved with my treatment is gonna continue to do the best that they can for me. πŸ‘¨πŸ»β€βš•οΈπŸ™πŸ»πŸ™‚

Let’s hope that I still feel this almost-optimistic later today, when I wake from like 4hrs of sleep. πŸ™„

(Shhh… don’t tell anyone, but if I can manage to sleep in, you can bet I’m gonna sleep
in. I’m pretty sure that the doctor’s office will be open all day, at least as far as I know…)

One After Another

Saw my back / knee doctor, and thankfully I was able to replicate all of the various movements that I can’t do without pain. He seemed pleased that he couldn’t hear any grinding, and the way he did a few significantly different things in a row that caused the same kind of pain… I think he has a guess about what’s going on in there, but can’t really be sure until he at least gets a look at some x-rays.

So I hobbled downstairs from that visit, and all the way to the opposite side of the building, only to discover that the lab in the building was having a problem with their x-ray machine and were sending everyone over to the already-crowded one by Target. Almost just drove my ass home, but forced myself over there to wait and just get them done on the same day. The sooner I get ’em done, the sooner we get further into what’s causing this problem. He did warn me though, that x-rays generally won’t show the stuff that a DO really wants to see, and there’s a good chance (if the problem persists) that I’ll have to do some physical therapy before insurance would authorize an MRI, if needed. Yay.

And then my stomach has been in knots all day, knowing that my involuntary workers comp appointment is coming up tomorrow. I just know how these things go, and that usually shortly after this type of doctor appointment, that’s when the medication refusals get worse, followed by industrial commission hearings, etc. You can’t know how it feels to have a disability with daily pain – and knowing that there’s a controlling entity out there that is doing everything they can to reduce the already minimal treatment you’re getting.

Going to bed early…

Why Do I Make Plans?

(Alternate / Extended Title:Β  Haven’t You Learned By Now? You Should Know Better…)

Another day, another disappointment. Not forΒ me… well, yeah, actually for me too… but the night before last I was feeling pretty good, planned on having a productive day yesterday, maybe even go grab Bri and take her somewhere so she could get groceries… but nope. πŸ˜’ I just haven’t found the “trick” when it comes to sleeping and my knee in its current state. One night it’ll be fine, next night… fucked. 😠 Last thing I really wanna do is have another round of xrays and scans, fearing that they’ll all “look fine” like with my lower back recently… but yeah, definitely gonna request xrays when I see the doc at the beginning of next week. 😣 Hopefully it’ll be something where a steroid injection will help, because I’m much more inclined to let them do that to my knee than to let them do it in my spine at the base of my neck. 😳

I think I’ve got it through my head now that “feeling better” on one day doesn’t mean it’s actually getting better. It’s not like I’m even pushing myself, but yeah, when I have a slightly better day – I do slightly more stuff… but that’s not working this time. So I’ve been in a shit mood, kinda disappeared from people for a couple of days, haven’t done most of the stuff that I had on my mental “maybe” list, but today – even though it hasn’t been quite as bad – I still haven’t pushed it, and I’m not feeling too bad. πŸ˜’ So that’ll keep my mental mood good enough to finally get through the bills (that I skipped the other night due to an instant headache) and probably check and respond to e-mails and messages. 🀞🏻 I think it being the weekend actually helps too, even though that’s sorta dumb when I don’t really keep a normal M-F human schedule except when appointments dictate.

But yeah, I’m around… and I’ll get around to the stuff that I need to get around to, whenever I end up getting around to it. 😏 It’s funny, when you’re young and healthy… and someone older tells you to enjoy it while you can, and tells you about all the random aches and pains and whatever… when you’re young, your brain just won’t allow that idea to register. (And therefore I don’t think anyone is really prepared for it, or accepts it gracefully.)Β Your brain doesn’t realize that you’ll eventually be the one with all the defective pieces, telling someone younger than you that this is what they’ve got to look forward to. πŸ™„ Heh… see… this is why it’s better that I just avoid people when I’m like this. Not exactly a ray of sunshine right now.

And say what ya’ want… but I still don’t think I’m old enough to feel this consistently beat up. πŸ˜•Β </whining>