Where’d That Come From?

Today has been good. No worse for wear from yesterday’s activities, and the original plan was to basically do the same sorta thing tonight… including just getting on here and rambling about whatever, whenever I needed or wanted a break. But boy, as soon as the sun went down this evening “sleepy” caught up with me in a hurry. It’s not even 7pm yet, but I guarantee that if I let myself get comfy in the recliner, I would be out. I guess it shouldn’t be that big of a surprise, since I only got about four hours of sleep this morning, but now I’ve got a decision to make.

Last thing I wanna do is fight sleep, since it’s such a struggle for me to get good sleep… but I know that if I take a nap or even try to actually go to sleep for the night right now, there’s a really good chance that I’ll end up wide awake around 3am. Meh, I might take a shower in a minute and see which way that pushes me.

But hey, at least the first half of the day was decent. Nothing much happened with Tesla stock until well towards the close of the day, so I didn’t miss anything there… and since I was feeling a little nostalgic due to the dream that I had, one of the first things I did today was watch Frosty the Snowman. I just realized how close it actually is to Christmas, and that I hadn’t watched a single Christmas special yet. This year has sucked, for sure, but I’m still gonna do my best to self-administer some holiday cheer if I can.

But many of you know how I struggle to string together decent days sometimes, so just in case I ended up falling asleep for the night I wanted to pop in here first to confirm that today has been another good one. To be continued… maybe…

Forgot to Recharge

Wasn’t really able to get over that hump today. ๐Ÿ˜• Enough sleep (pretty much, anyway) just not enough energy. I didn’t have anything that I “had” to do today, but when I woke up I decided that I wanted to go in town to knock out a couple more chunks of 360 degree video. ๐Ÿ“น๐Ÿค“ A little after 11am I went to grab the camera to go, but realized that I hadn’t charged it up since the last time I used it.

I plugged it up and then relaxed on the floor in front of the space heater for what I assumed would be like a half hour or so, but as often happens – I conked out and didn’t wake up for another three hours. (I guess I didn’t recharge properly either… heh) It’s frustrating, since that nap actually felt like it stole energy from me rather than giving it, but after about 20 minutes I was able to get my butt into gear and head into town. ๐Ÿ˜

I drove a bunch of the east side, and a little bit out on Sheridan drive, so I actually covered more area than I expected today. I figured since it was around the time when folks were getting off work, that the roads might be a little too busy for leisurely recording, but it ended up working out. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿ™‚ Ended up with a couple twelve-minute videos and then a third nine-minute one. They’ll likely be uploading most of the overnight.

But even getting out and doing that, getting some sunlight and air, I just never got to where I felt like I was “up and going” for the day. ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ Energy started low, stayed low, and is still low right now at 9pm. Meh… hopefully it’s just today, and maybe I’ll be able to shake it off tomorrow. I sure miss how I used to feel when I was younger, less banged up, and less cut into though. ๐Ÿ˜ž I suppose “slowing down” is just what happens, at various levels, but I still wanna try to figure out how I can force a little more pep into my step on the daily.

(I’ve got a couple appointments coming up soon re: my more serious health stuff, so we’ll see what they say… ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ณ)

And I forgot to mention that Athena stopped by the other day for a visit. Not really for me, but for Maggie. Athena still counts as Maggie’s mom, since she was her cat for several years before Cassi had to take over for a bit… so it was nice when Maggie ran right up to her to get some attention, with Athena only having to say her name once. ๐Ÿ˜ธ And while Maggie’s a friendly cat, she’s also really nervous… so you could tell that Maggie definitely remembered her, the way she wanted to say “hi” like that, without any anxiety, before heading back off into the house somewhere… showing that she’s also quite happy with her “new” home. ๐Ÿ˜Š

Much Doctoring

It’s only half way through the week but I’ve taken care of the blood draw, the appointment for my off-and-on lower back issues, and then another appointment to go over the lab results and schedule some additional things that need to be checked off of the “Post ’18 Surgery / Keep an Eye on Stuff” list at some point during the next six months. ๐Ÿ˜ฏ๐Ÿ˜Š That was a pleasant surprise to hear that last part… that my lab numbers didn’t trigger any sense of urgency from the doctor, and that I can just do those next things at my leisure. ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป

Tomorrow is gonna be a partial day off… probably gonna make a couple more phone calls (yay?) that need to be made, but other than that I’ll probably just potato in the AC here at home. It’s been effing hot so far this week, and looks like it’ll be just as bad (if not worse) as Independence Day approaches. ๐Ÿ˜“ Some of us are meeting up on Friday for my friend Jim’s birthday, and that’s gonna be outside, so I’m gonna cross my fingers and hope that we can find a place around here with both a low human count and lots of shade. ๐Ÿ˜Ž

Had a nice surprise towards the end of the day. ๐Ÿ™‚ Well, nice for me, but slightly less nice for Dad. He wasn’t feeling great so he had someone take him over to the ER to get things checked out, and once they were done I went and picked him up and gave him a lift back home. ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿš– He seemed like he was feeling pretty good, relative to the reason for his trip out. I’m glad my car was cleaned out since a couple weeks ago though… heh… ‘cuz not only would I have been embarrassed for him to see it, but he also would have been sitting with his knees pinned to his chest due to all of the trash clutter in my passenger-side footwell. ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿ˜…

My sleep is still pretty screwy, so I’m almost positive that I’m gonna be up half the night tonight – but I’m not even gonna sweat it one way or the other. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ Half the time, when I can’t sleep, it’s ‘cuz I’m stressing that I can’t sleep. But with nothing major on the agenda tomorrow, it doesn’t matter when I crap out or wake up. ๐Ÿ˜ด My nap today was solid though. ๐Ÿ˜Š I didn’t even hear when the lawn guys came and mowed… only noticing it once I was backing my car out of the driveway later in the day.

Flipped The Switch

I blame Dark (season 3) for everything over the past 48 hours or so… ๐Ÿ˜

Woke up stupid early on Saturday morning to start binge watching that, had a couple friends stop by for about an hour, and between those two things – I needed a nap. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿ™‚ Unfortunately that nap at 5p lasted until about 9p, so I was up all damn night. Yesterday morning I finally got another short nap around 7a, before finally falling asleep asleep around 5p through 1a this morning. ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿคจ So I finally got enough sleep to where I was able to flip the switch a few hours ago to “awake, up, and around” before heading in town for some Tim Horton’s coffee and TimBits. ๐Ÿคค

I’ve got a couple of appointments today, and a little errand to run for Dad, but all of that should be finished up by the early afternoon… so I think everything will be okay today. Now, I don’t know what that is gonna mean for my sleep tonight, but at least I feel okay right now… around 6a. ๐Ÿ˜ It just sucks though, feeling like I blew the entire weekend, bleary-eyed and draggin’ ass for the better part of both days. ๐ŸงŸโ€โ™‚๏ธ But like I told Genesee, it’s not like “weekday” vs “weekend” really means a heck of a lot these days.

Still a bit nervous about my blood draw, since it goes to the cancer / thyroid doc, and there’s always a bit of anxiety about that stuff. ๐Ÿ˜ฌ No reason to think it’ll come back with anything bad though, since I haven’t felt much different than I’ve felt over the past months since my last scan, so… ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ Not how I pictured my late 40s being when I was a kid, but I just have to keep pushing forward with this, the WC stuff, etc. ๐Ÿ™‚ Meh… maybe the doc will adjust my thyroid meds so I don’t feel like a potato all the time. ๐Ÿ›‹๏ธ๐Ÿฅ” Wish me luck.

Thursday Mission

Woke up stupid early yesterday so I could help out a friend. She’s been in an ongoing custody “disagreement” with her former SO for quite a while now, where they’ve each been representing themselves in court due to how expensive an attorney can be. ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ And without having a lawyer on her side, while things have been going in her favor, it’s just happening so slowly. With another hearing coming up in about a month and a half, she knew she had to start doing something differently, so I looked up a few places that claim to offer pro bono representation for people who otherwise wouldn’t be able to afford it.

She’s got an aversion to talking on the phone, just like me, but on Wednesday I encouraged her to start making some calls… and by that afternoon she had spoken with someone at SEOLSย who seemed open to the idea of taking her case, or at least hearing her out and looking at all of the information to figure out the best way for her to proceed. ๐Ÿ™‚ So that evening I printed out all of her case information to date, a ton of things meant to show that she’s the “more ideal” parent, and got it all sorted and organized in a way that would make it easy for an attorney to look through. ๐Ÿค“๐Ÿ“’

So then yesterday morning I picked her up to take her to the closest SEOLS office serving Fairfield County, which is unfortunately way down in Chillicothe. ๐Ÿ˜’ I left the house around 9:30a, and by time I got back home it was after 3p. That’s a long friggin’ time (for me) to be out and about, working on a stressful project… even though, obviously, she’s the one bearing the most amount of that stress. I just really want things to go well for her, and being familiar with the frustration of facing hearings with unknown outcomes, the empath in me kicked in and I couldn’t help but feel many of the things she was feeling. ๐Ÿ˜•

I didn’t go in with her when she actually met with the attorney, but she said things seemed to go well and that it felt more positive than negative. He made copies of all of the information that he needed and said that he wanted to talk to some folks who specialize more in custody cases on Monday… so while things sounds good, she’s still gotta wait a few more days before she’ll know for sure if they will provide someone to represent her. It was worth the trip regardless, because at the very least they’ll be able to hold her hand through what she should do next, even if they end up not being able to actually be with her on the day of her hearing. I’m gonna stay hopeful though, because having an attorney could make all the difference.

But I was wiped out by time I got home. ๐Ÿ˜ฅ I’ve done very little “out of the house all day” stuff lately, and especially for something that’s as “high stakes” as this. And of course helping her with her legal stuff kept my legal stuff in the back of my mind… the upcoming WC stuff, that is… and starting off the day so early, with my shoulder already bugging me, all of the time in the car didn’t help. ๐Ÿ˜ฃ But it was a small sacrifice to help her with something that could end up being a game-changer in the long run, and I knew that I’d have all day today to recover if I needed to.

Well, my body didn’t wanna wait until today. ๐Ÿ˜ Shortly after getting home I knew I wanted to take a short nap, but also not screw up my sleep schedule. But my nap lasted until the evening, and when I did wake up I went ahead and took my evening meds and thankfully ended up falling back to sleep – not waking again until a little after 6a today. ๐Ÿ˜ฏ๐Ÿ˜ƒ So I’m just now starting to catch up from messages from all day yesterday, but I’m gonna wait a while to reply so I’m not waking people up as early as it is.

I’ve still got a friend or two that gets concerned if I don’t reply in an undefined amount of time. That’s thoughtful of them, but boy I wish that folks in general would consider that even the most nerdy of humans don’t necessarily get online every day, or multiple times a day… and that sometimes whatever is going on during a particular day might cause messages to be ignored until the next. ๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ Yesterday’s situation was based on necessity, but I still do wanna try to take “days off” from the digital world every now and then… a luxury that younger people these days probably don’t really have. Imagine taking a teenager from today and transplanting them to 1985, during summer break from school, living out in the country, with only a landline telephone as means of keeping in touch with friends. ๐Ÿ˜…

Heh… another “old fart” thing to add to the growing library of “old fart things” in my head. ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ‘ด๐Ÿป

Vicarious Eavesdropping

That little nap yesterday afternoon…ย ๐Ÿ˜’ย screwed up my entire night. Didn’t fall asleep until about 3am, and I was up and down almost every hour on the hour from then on out. I don’t know if I was dreaming, since I was watching a huge storm front going through Illinois and Indiana as I was getting sleepy, but it was either that or I just barely slept through what sounded like a huge downpour. ๐ŸŒง๏ธโ›ˆ๏ธ๐Ÿก๐ŸŒง๏ธ๐ŸŒง๏ธย As if someone was spraying a hose against the side of my house. (Probably just my imagination.)ย Meh… now I’m just tired and grumpy and have a friggin’ neck / headache again, but hey… at least it’s Saturday. ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ

Took my morning meds and some Aleve, so I’ll be feeling better soon. Also, I’ve got a package on the way. ๐Ÿ˜ฏ And how can you be in a shit mood when you’ve got a package coming? ๐Ÿ˜ Before bed each night, I usually spend a while listening to the scanner, and relaying any interesting bits to Amy, my night-time / insomnia texting wife. ๐Ÿ˜ We use that term jokingly, of course… but everyone (if they’re married) has a real spouse, but then you often have a “work wife”, an “internet wife”, a “texting wife”, etc. Anyway, the scanner is great, but I’m far enough from town that reception is sometimes a problem. ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿ“ป

So I found a cheap, wide-band, glass mount antenna with the bitty SMA connector that my Uniden HomePatrol 1 uses – and it’s supposed to arrive today. Hopefully by one of their delivery people that has the GPS system where it’ll pop up a little map, showing where they are, and how many stops until they reach you. ๐Ÿค“๐Ÿงญ๐Ÿšš Gonna tuck the antenna behind the curtain on the picture window, which somewhat faces towards town, so hopefully it’ll give me just enough boost that I’ll stop getting garbled transmissions.

At this point, $20 was about the limit that I was willing to throw at a possible solution, but I did also consider that my metal awnings could possibly used with a magnet mount ground plane antenna. But not only does that start to get outside of my wheelhouse when it comes to antenna knowledge, but they’re also more expensive, and I don’t have an easy way to run the connecting cable into the house. Besdies, I’m not sure I care enough about “perfect reception” to bother doing whatever I’d need to do to get it perfect. ๐Ÿ˜ย Most services in the area have gone to digital broadcasting anyway, so I imagine it’s only a matter of time before they start using encryption as well – which would make my receiver useless. ๐Ÿ˜• Gone are the days of getting a $20 “Bearcat” scanner at a yard sale that would give you access to almost everything you’d wanna listen to.

Okay, enough rambling… just wanted to bang out an entry to help me wake up and get my day started. I doubt I’m gonna be out of the house much over the next couple of days, having no appointments or obligations (and also wanting to avoid the bizarre 90 degree “fall” weather), so that gives me even more reason to anxiously await the arrival of that antenna for one of my toys. ๐Ÿค“๐Ÿ˜Œ It’s honestly too cheap, so I’m not expecting much, but if it gives me just enough gain re: these two specific channels it’ll have been worth it.

Makes me wish for a “Fall Hamvention” … but I probably wouldn’t go to that one either. ๐Ÿ˜…ย I miss Hara Arena.

Makes Sense

I’m gonna make a non-bleh post today… I just have to work up to having the energy to do it. After getting dosed yesterday and coming back home, I honestly didn’t feel any worse… but my gosh, from yesterday evening on… man, am I feeling physically awful. ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ๐Ÿคฎ I didn’t notice many side effects the first time I had this done, but I also hadn’t gone a month without thyroid meds, already having me weak and feeling like shit. So I should have been a little more prepared that things could feel worse than last time. ๐Ÿ˜ž

That’s not why I posted though. Next post is gonna be about me choosing my Korean name. ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿ˜ And I know that sounds bizarre and random and “What are you talking about?” but when I do have the energy to explain it all, how it’s done, why I’m doing it… basically I just wanted to do something to distract my brain for a while yesterday, and later I’ll be able to make a post about it that will help me distract myself again. Hopefully. It’s actually a really interesting process. It’s a shame I don’t know any Korean people personally though, for them to tell me how goofy or old or weird my chosen name sounds. ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™‚๏ธ

But I’m gonna lie back down and hopefully get a short nap to get rid of this headache, but hopefully I’ll be able to get back on here later tonight for all that stuff.

Original Recipe or Extra Crispy?

While I was cleaning this afternoon I came across my Windows 10 tablet, which I hadn’t used in many months. So I figured I’d plug it in, charge it up, and then download whatever updates it asked for. ๐Ÿค“ It was a solid plan on paper, but within a few minutes of connecting the power I began to smell the familiar aroma of burning electronic components. ๐Ÿ˜ณ I’m glad that what I was working on kept me in the same room, otherwise it’s hard to tell what might have happened.

I’m pleased with the amount of stuff that I got done today though. The living room is clean, the last little bit of laundry is clean and waiting for me to fold it, and then I sorted through some more stuff and added to the “sale/auction” boxes stacked in the extra bedroom. ๐Ÿ˜Ž I did it all at a very “cautious” pace though… ‘cuz my brain is still being unpredictable, and I didn’t wanna push my luck too much. ๐Ÿ˜

The accidental hour-long nap that I took this afternoon is gonna fuck me though. ๐Ÿ˜’ Not that I had a healthy/normal sleep schedule going on yet anyway, but yeah… I know I’ve got a few hours before I’m gonna evenย possibly feel sleepy. Guess that means I won’t have an excuse to not fold all these clothes before I sack out, eh?