I’ve been cautiously creeping through the past couple of days, making sure that I didn’t do anything that could possibly tweak my neck (since it’s been acting up again) but the past 12 hours have been awful anyway. 😑 Sleeping for an hour here and there, and then when I finally woke up and stayed up for good this morning at 6am – I had some serious chest pains going on. 😳
My breathing was fine, I wasn’t lightheaded, and I didn’t feel any tingling in my arms, legs, or face – so even though it caused me concern I decided to not go to the ER. 🤷🏻♂️ I actually went in town to get some aspirin though… a couple to chew right away, and the rest to add to my normal daily pills. Just in case. (I even sat in the parking lot at the hospital for a bit. Also just in case.) But the idea of heart troubles or a heart attack… my brain goes “You’re fine, that only happens to old people.” while forgetting that I am close to being “old people” if not there already.
I caught a nap after coming back home, hoping that if I got a little more sleep that it might make me feel better, but that’s not been the result so far. 😟 I swear, it’s like I slept on my front, and someone snuck a baseball-sized rock in between the mattress and my sternum. 😣 I’m not dead so far though… heh… so I’m gonna give it one more day and if it isn’t noticeably better then I guess I’ll almost have to go to the ER.
Do the majority of folks my age (and older) always feel like they’re falling apart? 😢 I’m obviously really hoping that this is just nothing… so I’d definitely appreciate any “thoughts and prayers” that anyone may care to throw at me until it passes. ❤🙏🏻 Looks like I’ll be remaining in neutral for a while longer.
I certainly wasn’t ready for a lengthy talk with my workers comp attorney this morning, but I am glad that he called. Heh… I know that doesn’t make sense – but we needed to start getting more on the same page with the whirlwind of stuff that’s going to start happening, so I couldn’t let it go to voice mail. I just could have used a cup (or four) of coffee before being expected to human on the phone. 😏
He didn’t tell me this, but I know it to be true… the less I say about my claim the better, so even though I might want to rant about this or that, or gloat when things go my way, I’m afraid that I’m going to be basically keeping my mouth shut about everything until this phase is done. (And I might be silent afterwards, depending on if there’s a non-disclosure clause.) Basically, I just don’t want to do anything that might screw things up for me.
Just know that if I socially vanish for a while, or if I seem to be more twitchy than usual, it’s probably because of all of this shit. Even under “best case scenario” conditions it’s unlikely that this will wrap up before the end of the year. 😐😑 We won’t talk about the worst case scenarios. But after talking to him this morning it has given me a little bit of my confidence back in regards to all of this. We are in agreement with everything we discussed, so now their firm starts doing their thing and I cross my fingers and wait until they need my presence again.
Heh… I swear, it’s like “legal-ing” is my new job. 🙄