Peaceful

Doctors should prescribe cats for people who have an excessive amount of “twitchy” in them. 🙂 I’m trying to get my brain to click over and act the way I want it to today, and while I’m not quite there yet… having the beast watching over me with sleepy eyes is helping. 😏 I’m lucky that she’s mine.

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Maybe Tonight

I got a message yesterday that Dad had to go to the hospital and that they were gonna keep him to check on some things, but since my sleep was all screwed up I decided that I’d just go to bed early last night and head in this morning to see what was up… but of course my brain couldn’t let it be that simple. 😒

To bed at midnight, asleep for maybe 15 minutes, then awake through 1am… 2am… asleep for 30 minutes, awake at 3am… all the way through to 7am, when I finally fell asleep for a whopping 45 minutes. 😑 I’ve been up since then. And it’s going on 9pm now. I know, that’s a lot of numbers, but it’s the same old shit – I knew I absolutely had to go to sleep so that I could get up early, which then made it impossible for me to go to sleep so that I could get up early. 🙄

Heh… then I was worried that I would fall asleep and end up sleeping for 10 hours or something, and Dad would think I was just pissing my day away doing something else. My brain is so much fun sometimes.

I did finally drag my tired ass out of the house and into town in the early afternoon, and even though he’s definitely not feeling great, it sounds like he’s on the path to recovery, so that was good news. 🙂 It actually made me feel a lot better, despite feeling sleep deprived and a little sick myself, and I think that’s what gave me the boost that’s kept me going into the evening. 🤷🏻‍♂️

I gotta believe I’m gonna sleep at least okay tonight… right? 🤞🏻

Home Stretch

I’m writing this particular entry at 6:00a because yesterday kicked my ass, and I ended up falling asleep around 8:00p last night… which, honestly, I don’t even remember happening. 😏 I guess that serves as proof (?) of how I have a limited battery when it comes to certain types of activities.

Yesterday afternoon was my appointment with the estate attorney, which I hope will be one of the last times that I have to see him. He was nice as usual, and it seemed that his lack of focus on my particular needs was based more on his full plate rather than anything intentional. I’m not excusing it, the way my calls went unanswered, but I’ve made my share of mistakes or slight delays in the process as well, so it just is what it is.

Everything is going to wind down now, finally, and with the exception of a little paperwork and an appearance before the court (for Steve, not me) there’s not much else that I’m likely going to have to do. I only have to wait a few days to make sure the figures that I’ve got are kosher, and then that’ll pretty much be that.

But yesterday… heh… I thought I was gonna be able to go in there and wrap things up in like ten minutes, but of course things are never that simple when lawyers and courts are involved. 🙄 I didn’t think I’d have to bring all of the shit I’ve compiled over the past year and a half, so I had to also run over to the bank, run back home for some stuff, and then back there to drop off the remaining paperwork. A little more work at home, preparing some paperwork and stuff I have to mail out, and *ploop* … I was out. 😳😴

Unpredictable

It’s been a pretty bleh weekend so far. Had trouble sleeping during the week, getting 3-5 hours on average each day/night, then on Friday night I slept for 16 hours. 😳 Sounds great in theory, but then I ended up staying awake until almost dawn today… and to top it off, I was gifted with horrible, horrible nightmares. 😞 Not “boogeyman” type dreams, but more of the “family-based” variety. So I woke up a bit after 12p today with the energy of a boiled potato.

But yesterday, even though I had enough sleep where I could have done it, I just couldn’t make myself go to the Sweet Corn Festival to do the traditional “walkin’ around” with Jim and other friends. The cool weather and constant drizzle didn’t help, but I just didn’t have it in me anyway – so maybe the crap weather was a blessing. 😒

I’m probably going to drop even further off the radar today than I usually am, so I can hopefully shake off the crappy residual feeling from my dreams by watching the NASCAR double-header… and by possibly doing some random chores around the house during the commercial breaks. 🤔 It would be nice to start the week a little bit ahead of the game, especially since I never know how my sleep will go anymore.

For the record, there were some good moments over the past several days, and I’ll probably get around to mentioning them at some point… but now is not that time.