Out With The Old

Haven’t been sleeping great… a couple hours here, a couple hours there, but I did manage to wake up at a normal time today and get some of my errands done. Not sure if my attorney will be calling tomorrow or not, but at least all of that stuff is in motion and more work will be done on it soon. Was gonna stop in and see Dad on my way home, but it was a little too warm today for a visit outside, so hopefully we’ll find a cooler, nicer day sometime this week. I’m actually looking forward to when we can take a ride up to Millersport to check out all the old haunts. But yeah, over 90 degrees is not anyone’s idea of a good time for sittin’ out talking.

So I headed home and decided to go ahead and start the process of setting up my new phone. I got a normal iPhone 11… the new SE is just too small, plus I wanted to get something decent at a decent price instead of being tempted by the iPhone 12 Pro Max with it’s LIDAR camera setup. πŸ˜―πŸ˜ƒ Want? Yes. Need? No. 😏 I barely leave the house these days, let alone do anything that resembles photography, so no sense in blowing money on a fancy camera phone that I’d probably only use to scan dumb shit around my house. πŸ™„πŸ˜’

But I think I’m gonna be happy with this phone. It’s basically like my old one, just with a bigger screen, better dual cameras, faster everything… and even though I could have just had the battery replaced on my old one, they’re only gonna update iOS on those old models for so long. With this one I’ll be set for another four years or so. The more that I think about it, I actually did pretty good in keeping the old one as long as I did. πŸ™‚

But that’s when the afternoon turned tedious. The race got rained out… or at least it got rained on for long enough that I forgot to even check back in to see if they got going… but part of that was because I was dealing with customer support from Boost for the better part of two hours. 😣 The phones themselvesthey knew what was up… the new phone asked for the old phone to be placed next to it, then the old phone started sending over all my apps and data – so the new phone looks almost exactly the same as the old one. That process went fine… but the new phone still wasn’t working as a phone.

I tried to use the portal on their site to “swap phones” as they put it… and, at least on the dashboard, it looked like it worked. Had the exact model number, serial number, etc… even a picture of the phone… but calls no longer worked on either phone. πŸ˜’ After chatting with three different support techs, the last one finally realized that the previous two were entering the wrong sim card information into the system… something that he handled in about three minutes. πŸ™„πŸ˜‘ You know how you get when something is supposed to just work, but then you spend hours effing with it? Yeah… it was one of those evenings.

But it’s all good now. There’s still gonna be lots of little “this and that” that I’ll need to do to make it just like the old phone, but it’s more the fun type of fiddling. I’ve already got all 1600+ of my “liked” songs on Spotify downloaded for offline play, and tomorrow I’ll get to carefully attempt to put the tempered glass screen protector on and get it seated in its case so I don’t feel like I’m gonna snap it in half every time I handle it. 😏 Meh… I’m just rambling now since it got me all wound up… I’m happy. New phone, new stuff to play with, so I’ve got nothing to complain about. Just wish I felt even a little bit sleepy… πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

Oh, and I’m finally catching up with Dad… heh… he’s been using online ordering for a couple months now when it comes to grocery shopping. And tonight I finally finished setting up my own account so I can avoid all the dirty asses in the grocery store as well. πŸ˜… Will probably place my first order tomorrow. πŸ‘πŸ»

Blue Angels / Thunderbirds

Looks like they’ve sprung for cameras like the 360 cam I’ve got for each of their cockpits… πŸ˜―πŸ˜ƒπŸ€“

It’s a shame that people on Twitter and on the news had to take something nice / distracting like this and poop all over it though. You’ve got one group of folks that are talking about how much it cost to do the performance, saying how the money should have been spent on PPE for the hospitals and doctors… and then the second group is mad because the mayor of NYC scolded the Jewish folks who held / attended a funeral in which hundreds of people attended, flouting social distancing rules… and the bitchy people complained that the folks who went outside to watch the Blue Angels and Thunderbirds fly over weren’t scolded in the same way for their supposed “gathering” to do so. 😐 Because those two things are apples to apples and definitely make for a perfect comparison. (Note the heavy sarcasm in that last sentence please.)

Quite a video though… those guys / gals are brave / nuts. 😊

Oh, and as for the cost of the show, and the hospitals needing supplies… I can almost guarantee you that not a single hospital or doctor is going to ask for PPE or supplies and be told, “Well, we would have been able to get you that extra ventilator, but we had that airplane show the other day, so…” πŸ™„πŸ˜…πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ I mean, let’s be real. The hospitals and doctors are going to get the help that they get. The Blue Angels / Thunderbirds show isn’t going to reduce whatever help those folks would / are able to get from the government any more than Pence’s trip to the NIH did, or Trump’s flights back and forth to his properties. πŸ˜’ Let the people have some fun. You know how many kids were probably thrilled when they stepped outside and saw that stuff? 😁

See? The grumps even tainted my viewing experience, and I wasn’t even there. πŸ˜πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ

See, I’ll Still Ramble…

I had a good day out of the house yesterday. Well, afternoon anyway… did some “chore” running that I had to do, stopped off at a couple thrift stores, and then went out to visit with Dad for an hour or so before heading back home. πŸ™‚ Did quite a bit, relative to the same time several weeks ago, and it didn’t take too much out of me… but I did fall asleep way too damn early yesterday. πŸ™„πŸ˜ It wasn’t that “drained” type of sleep… I just went back to the bedroom early, figuring I’d watch a couple movies before I sacked out, but I ended up actually falling asleep around 7pm. 😴

Woke back up at midnight, watched the 2nd and 3rd Matrix movies (since I watched the first one again a couple days ago), then fell asleep near the end of the last one and didn’t wake up until around 10am this morning. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ So it’s 11pm now, I’m in bed, and I’m tired – but not sleepy – so I really have no idea when I’m gonna fall asleep or when I’ll wake up. πŸ€ͺ Luckily the only thing on my agenda tomorrow is going out to see Bri at some point. She’s one of my friends that I didn’t want to see me in as bad of condition as I was for those several weeks, especially considering that she lost her mom to cancer last year. 😟

Two totally different kinds, so any symptoms shouldn’t be compared at all – but I just know that if people saw me during the really bad week or two, they could definitely get the wrong idea about how good or bad I was doing. 😳 But anyway, I’m feeling “better enough” now that I don’t think I come off as “concerning” anymore… at least no more than usual. 😏 So I’m 99% sure I’ll still end up seeing her tomorrow, it’ll probably just be later in the day than I was thinking when I talked to her earlier. She’s great though… and a little frustrated with me at the moment… because like she repeatedly tells me – she’s been through the worst of the worst with her mom, so she doesn’t want me to feel like I have to hide anything from her for her sake. πŸ˜ŠπŸ’•

But my little thrifting trip… it was productive as well. I got a couple shirts, picked up some cheap stereo speakers for Cassi’s receiver that she got, and then found this strange, lone drinking glass with the silhouette of just a woman’s black hair and old-school glasses. 🧐😯 It immediately reminded me of Mom… from a few of her photos when she was really young… and when I showed it to Dad, unprompted, he immediately saw the same thing that I did. 😊 So that was kinda neat, and such a random thing for me to have spotted on a shelf where I normally wouldn’t have even been looking. I’ll have to take a better photo of that glass and then find one or two of the pictures of Mom that it resembles. πŸ™‚

Even more random, Genesee was heading back home from a trip she had taken with her family over the long weekend – and at the same time that I spotted that glass, she sent me a photo of an exit sign that they had just passed under, showing that they were only a couple of miles from the Atlantic City Expressway. 😊🎰 So, yeah… even though I think about her every day, it seems like Mom wanted to make sureΒ that she definitely got our attention that day. πŸ™‚Β And it worked…

Me? You Sure About That?

Another big part of my yesterday and the day before was spent trying to help a friend who’s going through some serious shit. 😒 Granted, if you’ve read many of my posts here, you’ll already know that I’ve got plenty of acquaintances, friends, and family that are going through their own personalized flavor of shit at the moment. πŸ˜• Some worse than others, some where I can help, and some where all I can do is just listen, try to understand, and hope and pray for the best. 😟 But man, this person’s state of mind over the past two days… let’s just say that it was very concerning. 😳

(I know this person doesn’t read my blog, nor does anyone that really know this person, so even though I’m sorta putting their business out here… it’s not something that will affect them, and even if they knew, I think they’d actually be okay with me posting about it anonymously like this. They know how I am… how a lot of times, processing my thoughts on the site here is just how I have to do things if I want to attempt to clear my brain of all the clutter…)

I am glad that I have people in my life who feel like I’m the right person to open up to, even when the topic is something as serious as it was… 😬 but I am so not the right person to be able to handle something like that right now. I mean, I did… because I had to… but not without getting completely emotionally drainedΒ (and actually physically ill from the stress of the conversation) and realizing how little I could do about any of their problems. πŸ₯ΊπŸ€’ But despite that, of course I’m glad that they turned to me… even if I was essentially helpless and basically only able to listen and talk things through with them.

The hardest thing about the drawn out text conversation was that as they’d mention this thing, the next thing, the thing after that… I could absolutely understand how the weight of all of those things piling up on them, seemingly all at once, could push them (or anybody, for that matter…) to the point where they’d just be ready to give up. 😒 It’s scary because it’s hard to know if you’re making a difference with what you say, when in the back of your mind, it’s like “Wow, yeah… I get it.”

But at least for now, I feel like our conversations helped. πŸ˜πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ Enough so that I might be able to sleep sometime tonight, and I’m finally able to eat something and keep it down. And I’m not saying that to give anyone any crap. If someone feels like their last resort is reaching out to someone, they do so knowing that it’s not going to be an easy conversation for either side, and that the person they are talking to cares enough about them that they’re going to get pretty messed up by the whole thing as well. πŸ˜• But as stressful as it is to be on the receiving end of that sort of conversation, I just know that I can only pray that someone would be willing to be that person for me if I ever felt like I’d run out of reasons to keep going.

I dunno, I just had to post this. πŸ€” Often times I still feel like people, in general, who know me… they’ve got this mental image of what I’m like, what my days are like, and that it usually falls somewhere between lazy” / “boring” / “uneventful” / “a little stressful” / “what’s he complaining about nowheh 😏 Sometimes I wish that they could spend a couple days in my head… to know how things reallyΒ can be. And as I typed that…Β just now realizing it, that’s probably what all of us want – even the people who feel like everything is crashing down around them… we just want someone to know, to try to understand, to realize that there’s so, so much more going on behind our “game faces” and other people’s assumptions. πŸ™πŸ»

Where To Even Start?

This is probably the fifth or sixth time since last Sunday that I’ve opened up the blog editor and just sat here, staring at the blank screen, unable to come up with “the right words” that would end up being the first post that I’ve made since Mom passed away. I think I just need to accept that right now I just don’t have the right words. If I waited until I could come up with something exceptionally eloquent or thoughtful, there’s a good chance I wouldn’t even update this blog anymore.

Mom’s passing wasn’t unexpected, so a person might be tempted (for that reason) to think that they’ll be ready for it when it happens… but nope, that’s not how it works. It’s been almost a week now, and my brain still hasn’t decided how it wants to handle it. Nothing is “normal” about the days immediately following someone’s death, so we probably won’t really start feeling it until we all settle back into our normal routines.

I was there to support Cassi when her aunt passed away, I was there for Genesee when her dad passed away, and I was there for Brianna when her mom passed away just a few months ago… so of course they’re all being super supportive for me now. And as you’d expect, all of the family has been texting, calling, talking, and supporting each other… but with all of that fuss (which I absolutely appreciate) it doesn’t really let you feel how your brain will eventually decide that it wants to feel. That’ll probably start happening a little more around the middle of this coming week, in large part due to Genesee (who came to Ohio almost as soon as she got the news)Β returning home around that time.

It ends up being kinda perfect though. Having all of the company and support has actually been a good thing for me… but I’m also looking forward to things going back to normal, because I know I’m gonna have days where I want to be absolutely alone, to feel however I wanna feel about it, and without feeling like I have to act this way or that way, or appear strong for someone else’s sake when maybe I don’t want to.

I dunno… that’s all I really care to say right now. Not because I don’t have a billion thoughts and feelings and memories that I could talk about, but because my goal for this post was to just finally acknowledge it and put it out here. Besides, no matter how much I might talk about Mom, there’s simply nothing that I could say that would do her the justice that she deserves. So rather than be awkward and weird and possibly ending up saying the wrong thing due to my brain being a little fried, I’m just gonna leave it like this for now.

Preparation

Yesterday was a strange day. 😐 I feel good, having completed a bunch of stuff that I felt neededΒ completing, but the nature of the stuff left me feeling a little uneasy – and definitely unable to fall asleep at a normal hour. πŸ˜• Despite that, I managed to have some awesome dreams. Awesome enough to have actually woken me up every hour or so – but of course I can’t remember a single detail at the moment. 😠 I’m just lucky that they weren’t about the topic at hand yesterday.

Of course I expect my upcoming surgery to go fine, but being the type of person that I am I’ve gone into “prepare” mode – just in case it doesn’t. 😳 As part of that preparation process, I spent a good amount of time typing out letters to my cousin Jim and my ex-wife Genesee, as they would be the ones handling everything in the event that things need to be handled. Those letters are just my way of easing them into the process. (Since I was the executor for my aunt, I learned a few tips and tricks.)

They won’t even get those letters unless the situation calls for it, so that allowed me to be a little more free with what I said… but for the most part it was just explaining my will, explaining my wishes when it came to my personal belongings, explaining a good deal about how the process will go, and what they will need to do to keep things moving along, hopefully without too many hiccups and at a reasonable pace. 😎 It’s a lot to ask of someone, so I also made sure that my appreciation was made super clear.

But between the several pages that I wrote for Mongo, and then the three pages that I wrote for Gen… I was just doing a whole lot of thinking about a topic that nobody wants to have to think about. It wasn’t all bad… in fact, a lot of the thinking that I did was about good memories, good times, good things with family and friends, etc. 😊 Oh, and I’m up to 19 separate audio recordings when it comes to the little archive of messages that I’m recording for people to have and listen to after I’m gone… which, like I said, I don’t anticipate happening for a good long while. πŸ™‚ I’m actually really enjoying doing that.

Don’t take this the wrong way. 🀨 All of this preparation is just being done out of necessity, and it’s something that any responsible person would want to do before a major surgery. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ‘¨πŸ»β€βš•οΈ It can just really mess with your head when you end up dwelling on the topic for too long. I’m still good though, and I know everyone that loves me has my back. 😏 I’m still optimistic about this surgery, I’m gonna get through it, and then whatever is next is next. One step at a time.

The Predator In The Predator

Another day, another celebrity scandal. This time it is with the movie “The Predator” and the director, Shane Black. It seems that Shane hired a friend of his for a bit part, one in which he was acting with only Olivia Munn, and that friend is actually a registered sex offender. πŸ˜• The crime was an incident several years ago where he was sending sexually inappropriate things to a minor via email. For this he was charged, convicted, and did time in jail. The worst part is that Black didn’t inform the other actors in the movie, to give them a chance to say whether they would or would not work with someone on the sex offender registry.

So Olivia Munn did what most anyone would do when they found out, including contacting the studio to express her anger about being kept in the dark and pushing for her scene with this man to be removed from the movie before it was released. πŸ‘πŸ» They didn’t respond immediately, likely talking with the editors and figuring out how they could do it without affecting the movie – but what she wanted ended up happeningΒ and the scene was cut. Even if you think that people who have “served their time” deserve another shot at what they want to do for a career, it’s hard to argue that the way the director kept this information from Munn and the others wasn’t wrong.

At that point you’d think the matter would have been considered settled, or at least placed on pause while the actors do promotion for the movie, which is due to be released in the next week or two. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ But despite the studio having her back and altering the movie, it appears that Munn is still mad – because she’s continuing to talk about the incident in multiple interviews. 🀨 Her co-stars have been with her for a few of them, and some of them have put out statements obviously condemning sexual predators and supporting Munn… but those same co-stars are now being attacked by the predictable social justice mob because they’re allegedly not supportive of Olivia Munn. πŸ™„

They’re all men, and of course they’re now being called every name in the book. Think about it. πŸ€” They’re actors hired for a movie, they did their part, they are proud of their work, and they want to do these media events to hype their movie as intended. The director, completely beyond the actors’ control or knowledge, hired a sex offender, so now they’ve all been dropped into the lion’s den when it comes to people waiting for and expecting a reaction or statement.

As other celebrities have learned, and as these actors are learning now – there’s no correct answer you can give when it comes to something like this. 😠 Even if you stand on the table and scream how much you hate sex offenders and can’t believe the director would hire one, there’s still gonna be a huge group of folks who will attack you for not giving reformed criminals a second chance. You bigot.

So, since Munn decided that she was going to continue talking about the controversy at whatever press appearances she had for the movie, the rest of the cast decided that they would not be joining her. Probably because they didn’t see the point in attending movie hype interviews where they couldn’t hype their movie. Also, like I said, Munn’s original problem/complaint had been solved, so it isn’t as if she is actively fighting for something that requires her co-stars’ support. And that’s what they’re being attacked for… for not supporting Munn as she rehashes her original complaint. πŸ˜’ She has every right to complain about whatever she wants, but why should the rest of the cast feel obligated to follow her around and nod their heads in agreement, when they had as much to do with hiring the guy as Olivia Munn did? (ie: none)

Most of the negative things that I’ve read regarding Munn aren’t talking about how she wanted (and got) the scene cut where she unknowingly acted opposite a sexual predator. People generally understand that. What people don’t understand is why she’s handling this in a way that seems designed to torpedo the success of this movie. She’s still upset at the director, even going so far as to not accept his public apology, and is now trying to damage him and the studio financially. 😐 Hear me out…

Munn’s original complaint was legit. Her request for the scene to be removed was reasonable, and the director and studio obliged and did just that. Now, during the press events, she could have done the traditional interviews, focusing on the film, with the other actors there as well, also focusing on the movie… but that’s not what she’s doing. She has chosen to go on at length about that controversy, which is her right – but if her co-stars don’t want to take on that burden as well, you can’t blame them. Especially when she’s doing everything in a way that tarnishes the movie, surrounds it in drama, and likely reduces its potential for success. Those co-stars worked just as hard as she did, so you could understand them being upset at how she’s doing this.

And the thing is, I’m all for her making her point. If she wants to make people aware that Hollywood still has icky directors and icky producers that hire icky people, then she has a perfect example here and she should run with it… but not days before the movie that they all worked so hard on opens. πŸ˜’ The director and studio fixed the immediate problem, so there is nothing further she needs to “fight for” regarding this particular movie – so she should get out there and do the traditional promotional press that actors and actresses are expected to do. No harm would have come from waiting. It wouldn’t be the first time that someone had to bite their tongue and support a movie that they weren’t particularly proud of, but she has chosen to make it “a thing” right now, when it will hurt everyone the most.

So that’s what I think people are complaining about. That she’s taking an issue that was resolved, and now she’s amplifying it in interviews and on social media in a way that’s harmful to the movie, the director, the other actors, etc. She could have still promoted the movie, or even not done interviews if that’s what she’d prefer, and just waited for the movie to get through its first few weeks where the most of its money will be made. πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ The facts wouldn’t change, the issue would still be there, and she would still have plenty of media outlets that would be happy to hear her out, just as social media would do. In fact, that would earn her more respect – having stood up for herself during the shoot, gotten the studio to make changes, went out and gritted her teeth and supported the movie and her co-stars, and then she could have blasted out the “behind the scenes / yeah, but you didn’t know…” for everyone to see, hear, or read – and likely agree with.

I’m not sure why Olivia Munn, making statements on the issue, requires all of her co-stars to be there with her or somehow “support her” more than they already have. What more does she need “support” with? She’s a strong woman and she’s doing fine alerting everyone to what happened on her own. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ Her co-stars just didn’t feel like getting wrapped up in drama, so the SJW mob has written them off as monsters, just as bad as the RSO, just as bad as the director, just as bad as the studio. πŸ˜’ And the ones that are reaffirming their support for her… they’re still being attacked as being too late, too disingenuous, too lacking, etc. The same way that Munn won’t accept Black’s apology, the SJW mob will not accept anything supportive that her co-stars say. They want her co-stars to offer those sentiments, but only so they can attack them for it. 😠

A whole slew of people who want to be mad about something, like spiders waiting for a vibration in their web – and then when they get it they won’t let go. πŸ˜” It feels too good to them. Every single co-star of hers could come forward with a genuine, heartfelt show of support – even if they’ve already shown support before it got as big as it is now – and the mob would still swarm on them, wrap them up in their webs, and suck the life out of them for as long as possible. 😏 Miserable people who only feel good by making other people miserable, whether they truly deserve it or not. 😟 And, sadly, they believe their outbursts, attacks, and twitter rants actually do something to improve the thing that they’re upset about. “I’M FURIOUS. I’M MAKING A DIFFERENCE. I’M A GOOD PERSON.”Β πŸ™‡πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ


Wow… heh… this was way longer than I expected it to be. πŸ˜… I never really know until the words start pouring out of my brain and through my fingers, how long some of these impassioned rants will be. It really helps with my anxiety right now, as well as keeping my brain focused on “other stuff” and distracted from the stuff around here… 😳 so just know that when I pop off with some seemingly random posts like this now and then, there’s probably more than the obvious reason behind it. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ˜

Slipped My Mind

When Toni and Matt were getting ready to move into their new place, Matt had gotten in touch with me and asked if I had any security cameras that he could use until everything was moved and they were totally settled in there. Now, at that time they didn’t have the internet activated, so there really wasn’t much I could provide that would be helpful. I had one small camera that could record to a microSD card, but it wasn’t meant for 24/7 monitoring – and besides, if someone broke in, they’d just take the camera along with whatever else they wanted, and nobody would be the wiser. 😏

Well, they’ve been living there for months now… but for some reason, after that one time of me and Matt trying to figure something out for security cameras, the whole idea of it had completely left my thoughts. 😐 Even after I set up my own house with multiple cameras, and after I got a camera for Genesee, I still didn’t think until just earlier tonight that Matt and Toni are probably the two people that need cameras like that the most. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈπŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ I wouldn’t say that their area of town is that much more sketchy than any otherΒ neighborhood you might pick on a map, but it’s an area that’s definitely more activeΒ – with random assholes on the street, on the sidewalks, in the back alleys… 😯

I don’t need to justify it, but Toni really does a lot for me, Mom, and Dad, and she’s always been that way. A “helper” like her mother. πŸ™‚ And that is just the excuse that I need to get her and Matt a couple of the security cameras like I use here at my house. If I was a good cousin I would have thought to do this for them months ago, because Toni works hard for her stuff, Matt works hard for his stuff – and neither of them should ever have to deal with any of their stuff going missing… at least not without video to show them who did it. πŸ“ΉπŸ˜―

I’m still amazed at the features of these “Yi” branded cameras, which you can still get for about $20. They’re the older models, and only 720p resolution, but they’re still absolutely fine for basic security needs like theirs. And like I told Toni, when she said she’d pay me back… I told her that I was happy to get them a couple of the cameras so they could play around with them and see what they thought – and then rather than paying me back, I told her to just take that money and put it towards a couple more cameras if they end up becoming fans and wanna expand their web of surveillance. 😎